Average Joe

It has dawned on me today that I don't really know if I have ever actually been good at anything. I know that I don't suck at everything I do, but there is a constant mediocrity. A feeling that I am just average. A B-grade student, never really getting anything like consistently good marks.
I kind of worry this realisation has dawned on my tutors too, where rather than marking me for what I've actually done, they look at my past marks (pretty much in or around 61ish) and just give me a mark based on that. Any feedback is all good, but nothing really indicated why I am unable to get anywhere near a 1st.

Fucks sake

I'm just feeling sorry for myself.